Better believe it...

I just discovered I CAN in fact blow a bubble inside of a bubble!! I'm so excited. I don't really have a whole lot to share.. kinda bumming today. Go see fireproof the movie it was great! I'll return.. when I'm feel like sharing.

:)

whew doggie...

I am not feeling well today at all. Achy body, sore throat and I worked a whole day.... But enough complaining. Just got back from my brothers baseball game. I love my brothers I don't know what I'd do without them. They are such a joy to watch grow up. They are almost like my kids!! Jeffrey's youngest brother got baptized this past Sunday by Daniel the youth Pastor at Dogwood. Its such a great feeling knowing that your family has made the decision to accept Christ. There is nothing like experiencing from the outside a commitment of someone you love to trust in God. We've been so busy.. Like always it seems. I can't say its a bad thing, just can't say its a good thing either. 

Sometimes life just really gets you. You know? Like all at once.. a billion questions that seem like they need to be answered right now, just swarm into your brain. When will we have our own place? Are we going to go to school? Which one? When will we be debt free, Dave? But I know I'm guilty of trying to do all these things on my own. I heard something recently that gave me chills... Temptation is the attack on trusting God. Trust  me... It will hit you either RIGHT NOW.. or in a day. I found myself constantly attacking my trust on God recently. The questions seemed to be turned to God.. God, when will we have our own place?! God, are we going to school?! God, which one should we go to? God, when will we be debt free?! God, we are working so hard.. can we have a small break?!.. You may not want to be honest with yourself.. But I've thought that a lot recently. As I write this my heart is breaking... "How can I think like this?" God must be so disappointed in me. I feel like my heart is so NOT trusting.. and Jeffrey's is a Solid Rock. Sometimes I'm a tad jealous at how sure he is on EVERYTHING, but then other times I appreciate the way God made me. My eyes are wide open. My Mind is wide open. My heart, however is growing.  

I find that when I am lacking in the trust department is when I learn the most. So I try to tell myself, be patient, wait, be still and listen. I have to admit this is not me AT ALL! I like to run fast, scream loud and paint with BRIGHT colors, break the "types" and yet fit in with them all. I like talk and not listen... I don't like to wait.. I hate being still and I'm wayyyy not patient. So these are things I am trying to be. I'm speechless now... I'm listening now... I'm waiting now.. I'm patient now.... His timing is perfect. I believe it, But I'm guilty of not practicing it daily. I can admit that.  God is Love and His Love is MORE than enough for me. In all areas of my life I choose to believe that!

In His AMAZING Grace,

Jessica

 

Along time.. wow....

Ok I am really bad about blogging. I have a feeling as my life is changing right before my eyes I'm getting ready to have alot to blog about. Jeffrey and I are pursuing what college he should attend. I'm so blessed to be his wife. He is such an amazing man. I thank God for him... really I do. So lets see besides possibly moving anywhere from Mobile, AL, Lynchburg, VA, to Australia.. we haven't had much on our minds! HA. I'm working with my dad which is just so great. I get the joy of messing with him everyday!! Jeffrey's job is going really well with lots of hours keeping him busy.. but allowing us more money to MOVE.. somewhere.I will tell you that we are ready for some kinda vacation. I'm ready for fall color changes and for the weather to be CRISP. We got Mario Kart for the wii and we LOVE it. Its what we do with our free time.. Which reminds me.. its time for the Walkers to come over and play that with us!!! Be praying for us as we search for God's guidance on college or staying here. God has brought some really great friends into my life recently and I can't thank Him enough for the honesty that these people possess. Its amazing. God rules in every area of our lives.. and He makes that so clear. He continues to amaze me in a way that only He could. He has taken me all over the place I feel but at the same time I see His plan working the way He has created it to. So.. Pray.. pray for miracles but God wants us to. He wants us to believe He can do whatever we know only He can do. I trust Him and His plan... do you?

Any Followers?

I was thinking this morning.. Does anyone even miss my blogging? I still don't think I'm very good at it. But what the heck.. I'm awake, Its early.. I should blog.
I wish I had some exciting news to tell you... OH besides the fact that Jeffrey and I have made the decision to be debt free in count it... 6 months.. at the longest. We can do it. Because we want a house.. well I want a house.. He just wants a place of our own. His new job is going well I actually dropped him off this morning, because his truck wouldn't start. Hooray for that! Yesterday was a very very stressful day but I made it through the wilderness.... (yes i just sang that line). We also received some really disappointing news from Jeffrey's little brothers that has to do with their father.. (i have to watch how much i say.. you never know who is reading this!) Please keep them in your prayers, its a very hard time for them. (history.. parents divorced... dad remarried.. addopting new wife's son) I had a great time doing a photoshoot this week. It turned out that I got to take some shots of the client and I had a blast.. I really loved the studio feeling. Ah.. Jeffrey is leading worship the 6th & 7th all by himself. Which is truly and honor for him to have even been asked. Don't get me wrong. He clearly has the talent. Its still just really cool to see my husband being able to do what God has called him to do! My parents left this morning for a weekend trip. Jeffrey has a really busy sched this weekend so I'm hoping that we can have a little time to ourselves with the house cleared out.

well one day I'll figure out this blogging thing.. and make it interesting.. I just need some funny stuff to happen to me.. and not such seriousness all the time.

until the sky is done falling-I'm still here

too long

wow. Sorry I haven't been blogging lately. Life is so crazy sometimes. Well lets be honest all the time! I have been in a whole new world lately with God that is, a world that is filled with heart ache and overwhelming love all at the same time. My heart has been filled with His love for others and for the love He has for me. I just got back from taking my brothers to see Clone Wars :). I actually enjoyed it. Jeffrey has completed his second week of work.. well almost he had to work today and is still not done :(. But its really brightened up our future for the dreams of our own house. We are so blessed to be allowed to stay in my parents basement but are very excited about owning a home of our own. Oh and being debt free will also allow us to take the vacations that we'd like to take. Or the missions trips we'd love to go on! Check out.... www.careforaids.com Also challenge your self to say "Yes" to the ministries God is asking for your help in. Do some research and be amazed at the little things you can do to make a difference one life at a time. My blog is short today. Just right. oh also.. Heritage Christian Church off of Redwine Rd. has an experience called Step Into Africa. I can't wait to go. Just in case your in the area.. you may want to check it out.

BAD WEATHER

AHHHH.. bad weather makes me laugh.. so hard. My little brother Griffin. Who is 10. Is scared to death of storms bless his heart. Garrett who is 9 acts like he is not afraid but really he is. The wind has picked up to 70 mph-ish. My dad is passing around the house making sure we don't need to get into the basement.. and we (Jeffrey and I are on the Laptop) watching the Disney Channel Games. Thats right you read correctly. Disney Channel Games are really funny. So anyways. I'm feeling better except for the fact that I worked way to much this week and my "female" issues are starting to bother me. Not that you wanted to know but my monthly visits ... Never happen. They used too... But Not anymore.. so for the last 2 years we've been trying to figure out whats wrong and I haven't found a great doctor yet. Losers. They never want to listen to whats really going on and they don't really care to find out whats going on. If I'm honest.. I think my "pain" knocking.. is really me missing my time with God and allowing other worries and feelings to fill that time and thats never good. So now that I can admit and address that issue.. it is no more. I'm praying that Jeffrey job goes well. He starts Monday. I'm so proud of him. I don't think he can even imagine how proud of him I am. He does so much all the time. OOH.. I did a load of laundry last night.. now you may say.. thats no big deal I do that all the time.. but what you don't know .. is I hate doing Laundry.. so Jeffrey was proud of me!! Yay!! I don't mind doing it really.. I find the best time to do a load of laundry is right before we go to bed.. then I can put it in the dryer right before I go to sleep. YAY! GO ME! Ok well.. I'm out.. enjoying the storm. :) and my life... God is amazing. I love Him. Always. 

P.S. Amy I know you'll read this.... I MISS YOU!!! This week.. hanging out?? 

grr

I find myself at a complete loss of words every once and awhile. It amazes me at the pain that we feel in this world.. Some we choose.. Some just happens. Maybe I'm always too negative but I just don't understand why people choose to do the things they know continually hurts them. Can't wrap my mind around that. Sometimes I try but lately I haven't been caring. Bad I know. I care.. I am no longer concerned. If only I could make choices for people. :) That would be great. My heart hurts.. really it does. I can actually feel peoples pain. Sometimes I wish I couldn't and maybe thats why I tell myself I don't care.. because I care too much. God continually amazes me and where He is directing my life. Where I was a year ago? Is like from here to California. The friends I had a year ago... they probably live in California now. I choose to Love God Daily and fail miserably when I try to do things on my own. I need Him. I need Him so badly.
Pain lives inside of me ... less often than it use too. (thanks to my husband) Its there tonight. Small but knocking.. I don't answer the door anymore. I let pain wait outside.. until it decides to go away. Its always better to sleep when you feel this way. Life has created this pain. Its the hurt of being lost.. in life.. and working way too much.. and just wanting to spend a week with people who really care. The type of people that call just to say hey, the kind of people you can pick up with after not speaking for 3 months and be in the same place that you left off. ... ok I'm done.. I'll be more chipper after more sleep